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Meghan Markle was a picture of royalty. But beneath the photo finish, she 'didn't want to be alive' - ABC News

Wrapped in a sequin gown, the sixth in line to the British throne by her side, Meghan Markle was every bit the picture of royalty.

Surrounded by revellers at Royal Albert Hall, the royal couple's public appearance for the premier of Cirque du Soleil's Totem show was billed by the tabloids as a "glamorous date night", as Harry and Meghan — then six-months pregnant — prepared to welcome their first child, Archie, in the spring.

But beneath the photo finish, a much darker narrative was playing out. Far from the magical evening portrayed in the headlines, Markle "didn't want to be alive".

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"One of the things that — it still haunts me — is this photograph that someone had sent me," Markle said of the event, during the couple's long-awaited tell-all interview with Oprah Winfrey.

"A friend said, 'I know you don't look at pictures, but you guys look so great'."

Zooming in, she said what she "saw was the truth of what that moment was".

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Meghan Markle reveals in Oprah Winfrey interview that she 'didn't want to be alive any more'

'It was all happening just because I was breathing'

In a carefully curated social media post, accompanied by a photo of the happy couple, Kensington Royal - the official account of the Duke and Duchess of Cambridge — confirmed the news the tabloids had been waiting for: Meghan Markle was pregnant with the couple's first child.

It was October 2018 — shortly after the pair arrived in Sydney for the start of their first official royal tour — and while the Royal family were all smiles in the press, behind the scenes, Markle said, the atmosphere was much different.

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"After we had got back from our Australia tour... we talked about when things really started to turn, when I knew we weren't being protected," she said.

"It was during that part of my pregnancy especially that I started to understand what our continued reality was going to look like."

Differing from protocol, the Palace "didn't want him to be a prince", Markle said, nor would he receive security.

In tandem with those conversations, she added, were "concerns and conversations about how dark his skin might be when he's born".

Pressed on whether being born "too brown" was seen as a problem within the institution, Markle said that while she "wasn't able to follow up with why... if that's the assumption you are making, that feels like a pretty safe one".

"I just didn't see a solution. I would sit up at night and I was just like I don't understand how all of this has been churned out," she said.

"Again, I wasn't seeing it, but it's almost worse when you feel it through the expression of my mum or my friends or them calling me crying, 'Meg, they are not protecting you'.

"I realised that it was all happening just because I was breathing."

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Meghan Markle says there were palace concerns about how dark Archie's skin would be

It was the tipping point that compelled her to confide in her husband. "I just didn't want to be alive anymore," she said, recalling how Harry "just cradled" her.

But later that day, the couple were bound for Albert Hall.

'I was just weeping'

To royal pundits, the evening was a picture of perfection. A young couple, enjoying a "glamorous date night" — a premiere held in support of Harry's Sentebale charity — before embarking on the journey of parenthood.

But for Markle, there was no alternative: "I remember [Harry] saying, 'I don't think you can go'," she recalled. "I said, 'I can't be left alone'."

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In contrast to glowing write-ups of the premiere, detailing how the couple "reached over and grabbed each other's hand" in an "adorable PDA moment", Markle said they were "smiling, doing our job, but we [were] both trying to hold on".

"Every time the lights went down in that royal box, I was just weeping," she said. "And he was gripping my hand."

Fearing for her mental health, Markle turned to the Palace's senior aides the next day for help.

But she said she was stonewalled: "They said, 'My heart goes out to you because I see how bad it is, but there's nothing we can do do protect you because you're not a paid employee of the institution'."

Despite emails "begging for help", and thoughts of suicide, she was not permitted to admit herself to hospital ("I couldn't, you know, call an Uber to the Palace," she quipped).

"When I joined that family, that was the last time until we came here that I saw my passport, my driver's licence, my keys," she said.

"All that gets turned over. I didn't see any of that anymore."

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'There's a lot that's been lost already'

The Palace responded to the claims levelled by the former Duke and Duchess of Sussex on Wednesday, saying the allegations of racism were "concerning" and they would be handled by the royal family "privately".

But Prince Harry said they ultimately made the decision to leave the Firm because they felt unsupported and feared "history was repeating itself" - a reference to the death of his mother, Princess Diana.

"When you can see something happening in the same kind of way, anybody would ask for help - ask the system of which you are part of, especially when you know there is a relationship there that they could help and share some truth or call the dogs off," he said.

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Prince Harry said he felt a lack of support from his family when he and Meghan were struggling with their roles.(

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"So, to receive no help at all, to be told continuously, 'This is how it is. This is just how it is'. We have all been through it."

Asked if she was afraid of a "backlash", Markle said she did not understand "how [the institution] could expect that after all of this time we would still just be silent".

"At a certain point you're going to go, 'You guys, someone just tell the truth'," she said.

"If that comes with risk of losing things... There's a lot that's been lost already."

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